*waves* Hi Justin! :D

me justin? do we know each other?
anyway, even if we don't, heyyyyy! :P

Hi! I remember you from a LONG time ago when I was here :P.

I had a pretty decent day but some reason I'm moody right now.

Like, inside I'm a blaaaargh mess. So many annoyed emotions and blahblahblah.
I'm not "acting" moody, just a lot more "scary" and frantic than usual.
it's like a bunch of tiny annoying things piled up and made me go BLAAAAAAAAAARGHHKKHHLJ

hate when this happens ;___;

...
this sounds stupid and I literally don't ask for it, but there are those times when I kinda do want people to shower me with compliments lolol.
Well, only if they're genuine.
I'm not a good person myself (and it's part of why I'm not feeling the best right now) and I never really give hugs or console people.
actually I'm a terrible person come to think of it. So I never really expect people to do those things for me, but as I think about it... every once in a while, it would be nice. (specifically, by some one really sweet and y'know, hawt that I could be a whiny brat and cry on. hee hee heeee)
It's just nice to be reminded that there's some one that cares, or to have a friend that totally knows me, genuinely compliment me and prove a "hater" wrong when some one else insults me.

also wutthebut there are 7 guests online right now. who are they

Megh. I had an okay day, went to a friends birthday party. It was fun, but i was hyped up on Red Bull, and kida acted crazy, and my friend got annoyed and started saying shite like "You're gay cause you dont know how to treat a girl," or "You're gay because you'd never get a girl" which kinda pissed me off, cause it just sounded so ignorant and was slightly offensive. I mean come on, i wasnt even really doing anything, i was fooling around. WITH OTHER PEOPLE.

I always get randomly hyper and crazy without anything. Kinda weird.
I try to control it but when I'm with specific friends who I always goof around and be uncontrollably silly with, it makes it kinda hard to control myself.

But yeah I still don't go to a lot of parties. Unless they're the kind where it's a gathering of friends I know and ~tolerate~, I'll probably just sit there and steal everyone's food and look at everyone all annoyed and stuff.

I think one of the reasons I'm being a moody skank hoe lately is because I realize I probably haven't changed as much as I thought. The flaws I always hated and tried to change still make random appearances every now and then.

I went to my neighbors party and got super wasted off beer and jungle juice and I'm trying to piece together what exactly happened because the back of my shirt is completely black, so I'm thinking I passed out somewhere random but my neighbors helped me into my bed...
I'm thinking about writing a funny apology and sticking it on the guys front door. I feel like an idiot!!! UGH I just hope I wasn't too annoying.

I wanted to be there friend and I went and got black out drunk I'm an idiot. I just thought I wouldn't be able to deal with all the new people sober.

Instead of getting shitfaced have you ever thought of getting a little tipsy and giggly. I'm sure it tends to be much funner.

Thank you!

the problem is, when I start drinking, there is a point where something in my brain takes over and makes me keep drinking when I shouldn't. Obviously I would rather just get tipsy. It just only works half the time. I don't go out for the night thinking "if i don't pass out in the parking lot this will not be a success."

I hung out with my neighbors again and they said they both blacked out too... so I have no idea who helped me to bed.
They smoke pot out on there front porch and have all done shrooms before so I guess I shouldn't have been so worried that they'd be pissed.
Thank god my floor is filled with alcoholics.


EDIT: but seriously I know I need to try to fix my drinking and its out of control. why on earth does a drunk brain crave more alcohol. It makes no sense, you'd think it would crave water but no.

X2

Like i said, they all blacked out too! Some college people drink heavily believe it or not.

But once again, blacking out is usually not intentional. It's just the brain craving more alcohol once you've had just a little to much, and its hard to resist.

MEANWHILE, BROWSING PORN ON HER COMPUTER...

lolll
I miss the flatness of Sims 1. But all those dogs scare me. They're just so small and it makes me think of an army of little bugs.

In other news
I hate when people I don't know add me on facebook but I get a feeling they know my friends
then they're all "lol no i dunt do no them blahblahblah bitch bitch bitch" and they constantly question my posts and dfhkgflhkglkj\
Then they're all like "i dunt no them i dunt no u i just added u guys i dont want to meet u guys or know u guys"
It's just wtf why'd you add then. Dumb butt.
stupid people I don’t know
I should grow a pear... and implant bombs in them and throw them.
and be all bad azz and utilize the block feature on facebook for once. I seriously hate how facebook no longer let's us to hide our profiles or our profile pic.

these random adds are so annoying when they "get in my business" after I accept them.
this is why I hate accepting requests from new people who don't know me. How am I going to know they aren't, you know, total idiots.
They don't know me and I constantly have to explain myself to them, whereas my friends who do know me understand my posts and love them and blahblah
yeah /rant

You could always... you know, not add random people you don't know?

I know!
That's what I normally do D:
I thought I addressed that didn't I? I don't know, my post annoys me too much to re-read it.

I make exceptions and accept add requests if it seemed like the person requesting me seemed like they were friends with my close friends so sometimes I'm like "ok why not". 'Cause like one person added me the same time a person I was becoming friends with and they were mutual friends so I thought maybe they were connected with each other. But then it turns out they're just random add-skanks.

plus as much as I dream of being a bitch, sometimes I"m too nice for my own good. That's my problem. I'm scared "Ignoring" a friend request will butthurt some dumb stranger if they see I accepted some one elses. It's just all "hey y wunt you add me???" but then they're all "y did u add me if u dunt wunt me?" It's like I can't win or escape. I've had some one message me a year after declining them asking to add them.
Then there's this one guy, who while he's very nice, he literally kept trying to add me no matter how many times I declined or ignored. He seemed nice, was friends with my friends, so I finally gave in and accepted him.
Besides the fact that he facebook creeped on my whole profile and sent me numerous messages and texts afterwards, he wasn't bad. I think I mentioned him here before actually. Haven't spoken to him in a while though.

But yeah I'm going to put a stop to it eventually. I don't even have anywhere close to 300 friends so it's nothing that got out of hand.
I'm okay now anyway because some one just told me they liked my posts and thought they're hilarious.
excuse me while

^Bahahahhahahahahhahahahha

It's not bragging at all to say I have the same problem, but instead have about 1200+ friends.

But, despite inflamation, you still understand<3

FACEBOOK PROFILE PAGE. Y U NO STAY THE SAME?

I thought Timeline would be a completely seperate thing to your actual profile page but instead it just completely overtook mine...
I DON'T WANT TO SEE RANDOM STATUSES AND UPDATES POSTED COMPLETELY OUT OF ORDER ON TWO DIFFERENT SIDES OF THE PAGE.

Although it's nice to see that I've liked over 5700 pages, and that information is readily avaliable for people to gaze in awe at.

ALSO, the whole system is northern hemisphere-controlled so my timeline says I graduated high school in June.